Movoda Manual - Yasuhiro

I really doubt you'll see this, but if you do, great. First off, I want to apologize. I said and did things that were not me. I did not mean to add drama and it was never my intention to make you feel hurt. I wanted my side told because I had heard you spread absolute lies about me. I was going through a period where I actually could not tell up from down. I was diagnosed with PTSD and severe depression a few months ago. I also learned I was codependent on you. I actually tried to kill myself because I thought that that was what you wanted and the only way to make you happy. I lived each day in the beginning trying to just get you to talk with me so we could at least be friends. However, any time I reached out, even to apologize, you attacked me and sent me into a downward spiral where I tried killing myself in every way possible for months because I felt my life was worthless.

It took me about 4 months to get out of that rut and I have been getting help for the PTSD and depression since October last year. While I'm not suicidal anymore, I am still not 100% again. My feelings of missing you are caught up as well with absolute fear of you hurting me further. I have flashbacks of the things you said and did to me, of all the put downs and violence, and relive those moments daily. I have become afraid to trust other people and feel that no matter what you are always going to try and harm me. I live in constant fear of you terrorizing me and break down more often than not.

However, I still can't bring myself to truly hate you. Who you became after leaving was not yourself. You began to mimic others' behaviors and I constantly worried about you. You were hurting yourself and all I wanted was for you to stop. Talking with me could have solved a lot of the problems both of us had. I offered you the chance to just sit down and talk with a therapist with me. I was willing to work things thru even to just be friends. That offer still stands and I am open to talking. You said you feel guilty and you know that talking with me could help with that. No arguing, no namecalling, no anything but a civil talk.

I won't force you to try anything and I am keeping my distance. Just please don't cause anymore destruction as you already have. I have already had 8 months trying to heal mysepf just to get back to being stable and both my family and I cannot take anymore pain.

Hopefully you see this and, when you are willing to talk as adults, will contact me. Whatever path you choose, I just hope you find the happiness you were looking for.

Best wishes,
Kenneth 2830?

Yasuhiro's Skills Mining Level 26 (542,470 Exp) Woodcutting Level 18 (159,361 Exp) Smithing Level 18 (156,230 Exp) Construction Level 18 (143,423 Exp) Speed Level 17 (138,319 Exp) Magic Level 13 (54,336 Exp) Crafting Level 12 (43,698 Exp) Harvesting Level 12 (40,260 Exp) Fishing Level 11 (36,176 Exp) Combat Level 8 (12,132 Exp) Cooking Level 6 (5,467 Exp) Trading Level 4 (2,645 Exp) Cards Level 3 (1,036 Exp)

Monsters killed by Yasuhiro 375 Bear 412 Cougar 43 Deer 29 Fox 63 Grizzly Bear

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