I want to see Your Smile,
But I get only sorrow, suffering
I have nothing, no light, no silence in me.
It seems I don't deserve anything.
That is why You are far, very far.
But I wish to tell You that
My life is a barren desert,
It is all darkness.
======================
“Who is it that loves and who that suffers?
He alone stages a play with Himself.
The individual suffers because he perceives duality.
Find the One everywhere and in everything
and there will be an end to pain and suffering.”
======================
This pain, this suffering, this tormenting love.
This love that breaks my aching heart.
Why oh why does love hurt so much?
In desperation I scream to the world.
She stole my heart with the first glance.
Now it fells like she has places it on an anvil,
Pounding it to pieces with her hammer.
Is this what love is supposed to feel like?
This pain, this suffering, this tormenting love.
If I had known that love would hurt this much,
I would not have asked for an angel,
Would not have asked for one as beautiful as she.
This pain, this suffering, this tormenting love.
I have become this twisted, tortured thing in her love.
Unable to breath, unable to break free.
Unable to do anything in her torturous grasp.
This searing pain inside of me,
Is more than I can bare.
The torture she puts me through,
When she says she loves me but pushes me away.
This pain, this suffering, this tormenting love.
For me to take with me eternally,
As I sink into purgatory.
